Insecurity Sucks!

I know I am not alone on this.  Well, maybe I am.  I think we all have some insecurities in our lives.  I seriously hate this flaw of mine!   I know where it stems from ....and I know that it is "just my insecurities" but seriously every time I think I've made some pretty good progress in this area....WHAM!   Insecurity rears it's ugly head!  Insecurity got the best of me today...bear with my ranting.  It helps me put it all into prospective and regroup.

WHY in the world can I not get over it once and for all???  Put ALL insecurities in the toilet and flush them away!  FOREVER!   Okay..that was gross!  My sons are starting to rub off on me!   Moving on.....

This much I know.  My insecurities come from the emotional way I feel about myself.   To change that emotion I need to change some core beliefs about my self image...the self image of not being good enough. What is good enough?  I found and I believe that good enough is when you give your best...and if that isn't "good enough" for someone else, doesn't mean I am not good enough...just means their expectations were higher than what mine were.   And good enough is not perfect.  I have found that NO ONE is perfect!  REALLY?  I couldn't believe it...but it is true!  So I'm not the only imperfect one on this planet?  I take great comfort in that!  

When I look back over the last 20 some years of my life and see the timeline of the events that have contributed to the way I feel about myself.  I have to stop and take note of where I have come....I HAVE made progress!  I am not where I was even as recent as 4 years ago.  I have learned to take my insecure thoughts captive and separate fact from fiction....and it usually helps dissolve that insecurity.   Sometimes not as quickly as I'd like, but definitely quicker and better than I use to!

I will continue to work on the core beliefs that contribute to my negative self image.  I will remind myself that I AM good enough, but will continue to strive to make corrections and improvement where needed for me, not for the approval of others.  

I love this quote from Steve Furtick...true statement!!  

Friday Funnies!!!!

I could totally use some laughs today!   Having a not so funny start to my day!!!  C'mon people...someone make me laugh!!!!

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LOVE this pig!  JS!  

Thankless Jobs

Listening to the radio this morning and heard a man be down right nasty to someone that he thought was a telemarketer...he was very rude and told her she should get REAL job.   How condescending he sounded...turned out this woman was actually a radio DJ and his tuned changed.   But it made me think...this is REALLY how we view people who do those less than what we think are desirable jobs.

Now I am not a fan of telemarketers...they can be annoying for sure, but really it IS what they do.  And for whatever reason they choose to do it, that is up to them. Who are we to judge what kind of person they are, doesn't mean they are unintelligent or undeserving of the same respect as some CEO of a corporation.   They are a living breathing person providing for themselves and most of the time a family.   What are some other thankless jobs that we view as not a "real" job?   Society seems to treat those that have less than what we think are desirable jobs as if they don't work a real job.  Where would we be without those UN real jobs?   We would have garbage laying all over the place and piling up around us if it weren't for waste management positions. Those that work in the service industry also tend to be looked upon as somewhat less than.  If we didn't have service workers, there would be no dinner out, no clean hotel rooms, no clean hospital rooms, stores, etc.  What if there were no pizza delivery person?  They are providing us a great luxury of not having to cook and go pick up our own food.  Tell me  how would the grocery stores be stocked?   Someone has to plant the produce, harvest the produce and prepare it and then ship and deliver it to the grocery stores. THOSE and many more ARE REAL jobs!    

How dare anyone be so condescending and judgmental to those who are working and doing what they can to live, clothe, feed, provide a home for themselves and their families!?!?   They all could be just living off of the system...but they choose to do what they can and work a REAL job!  OR how about maybe, just MAYBE they are doing what they want to do...maybe they enjoy what they are doing.

And that folks is my rant for the day!  Say thank you to that hard working person handing you that soft drink and fries out the window today!

Wordless Wednesday!!

Walk BESIDE Me, Please?

I've been flying solo this weekend.  The boys are with their dad and all my friends have been pretty much tied up with their own busy schedules.   I did get to go have dinner with a co worker/friend Friday evening. It was very nice to have some me time with a friend!

This weekend I've spent it out and about, shopping, walking, Easter shopping, washing my car...MORE shopping!   Trying to use what I'm learning from Chelsea Oliver at Chels & the City, http://chelsandthecity.blogspot.com/  and Monica from Pear Shaped Girl, http://pear-shaped-gal.com/
to put together some fresh spring looks!!    Okay, just had to put a shout out to these girls, they are talented and awesome bloggers that I've connected with since I've started my blog in February!

So in my journeys this weekend, I've notice a lot, and I mean A LOT of couples.  What I noticed about these couples was that the men in the couple, was walking like 4 feet in front of their partner!  I started counting how many times I saw this happening over the course of the weekend.  I stopped counting at 35 couples. How SAD!    I did however count 7 couples where the partners were walking side by side.

I do not understand it.  I use to be in the group where my ex would always walk so far in front of me, and trust me I'm a fast walker, but I'd complain, and say, would you walk WITH me please?  His response would be, walk faster!  REALLY?  Walk faster?

How about show me some respect?  How about ACT like you don't mind being seeing with me.  Act like you are proud to have me next to you.  Be my PARTNER!   Perhaps those couples I saw this weekend, the woman didn't mind trailing behind her partner.  I know I do not like it.  AND now that I get to "start over, I get to be a little more picky about that!  Go me!  I want a man who will walk BESIDE me!  A PARTNER!

I LOVE this quote by Albert Camus:  

Friday Funnies!!

Joke of the day!!!  haha!!!

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Who Will Stop the Pain?

My heart is heavy this evening.   This morning, my Facebook news feed and the radio was full of reports and accounts of a stabbing that occurred in one of our local schools.    20 stabbed, 19 of those students, one security guard, 2 critically.    The suspect is reported as a good quite boy, from a good neighborhood, and family.   It is also reported at this early in the investigation stage that he was a victim of bullying.  

I have been dealing with bullying with my youngest son for the two years.  He has been the victim of bullying. So I have seen first hand the affects of bullying!  And I can't say it enough!  I HATE IT!  I know we all do. But really, something hit me about a month ago.   I have seen first hand that the victim gets pick on over and over, and over and usually the victim feels so deeply and internalizes it.  And is tormented by it.  And the bully capitalizes on this.  The bully keeps picking and picking, til one day, for whatever reason the victim "snaps"  and lashes out with words or in this situation with violence.  They lose control over their emotions. I'm not saying this is the case in every situation....I know every situation needs to be looked at individually. But in one particular case, they lose control, and they KNOW better but they just don't know how to handle the pain anymore!  So they snap!  And then suddenly they are now the suspect, the criminal, the bad guy.  I am in no way condoning violence and them resorting to such acts. I'm just saying, there has got to be something more we can do to help the victims process the feelings they are feeling and the pain they are experiencing.  Give them the tools they need to cope and get through it.

We need to take it seriously!  WE NEED TO DO MORE!!!  And we need to do it before the victim "snaps" and has gone from the victim to the "bad guy" and making the 6 o'clock news.  

My heart and prayers go out to all of those touched by stabbing. I pray for physical, and emotional wounds to be healed.  

Blessings,

Marcy