~~A Thankful Wordless Wednesday~~

Monongahela National Forest~Dolly Sods Wilderness 

Why I Blog?

I started blogging back in February.  I toyed with the idea for over a year and couldn't decide whether or not to take the plunge and try it out. A blogger friend of mine convinced me to go for and she got me started.  I am forever grateful to her for giving me the push.   While I have not been as steady as I probably should be to make my blog as successful as some, I have used my blog as a journal of sorts.  
I am pretty much an open book...if you are my friend on Facebook, you'll see that I am up and down and all over the place at times.  Happy one minute, discouraged the next.  I put it all out there for everyone to see....for everyone to judge my state of mind.   AM I crazy?   I suppose I am to some extent.  I KNOW I'm unbalanced from time to time...aren't we all?  We all just don't put it out there for the world to see.  Some of us like to look all put together from the outside, while those like me...but I am definitely speaking for myself, don't really care how crazy you think I am.  

The reality is, we all have our crazy corner, we all have our vices, we all have our defects.  And we all deal with it differently.  Just because one may not openly display it for all to see, doesn't mean they are any less unbalanced from time to time as the one who lets it all hang out.  

My blog, my Facebook page is a journal for me.  It has been my go to when I am feeling at the end of my rope and I feel like I just can't hold it any longer.   My blog is a reflection of my defects, my Facebook page is also a reflection of those defects. By admitting that I have those defects and displaying them, I find that it's my reality check.  I blurt things out.  Sometimes I post things in the heat of the moment.  It gives me the ability to step back and think about the defects I have to let go. It gives me the ability to further my healing and cultivate my abilities.  It helps me grow with the encouragement, support, and even the criticism I receive from letting it all out there.  I can be thankful, for my life as it is. The more I can be thankful for my life as it is, the more I can accept healing that allows me to change and grow. By recognizing my abilities, I am increasingly willing to let go of my defects.

While I don't think my blog is as interesting as some...I LOVE following the fashion tip type blogs and cooking blogs and other DIY blogs...they are awesome!!!   Far more entertaining and informational than mine, but my blog is MY blog.   It is my place to grow in every area of my life.

Blessings to you my friends.  Have a happy Saturday.  

Marcy

Aha Moment!

It's 5:30 Monday morning and instead of getting ready for work as I do every Monday morning, I am preparing my mind for what lies ahead.

Friday was the last day at work, since I have decided to take a position with another agency.  I start my new position with my new agency tomorrow. I'm so excited and nervous all rolled into one! Anyways, this gives me today to prepare and think.

 My last post was about starting new chapters and that my story was so far from over.  It seems as though since my last post and the women's conference that I attended.  The conference that was one of my"aha" moments,  when I finally surrendered and stopped shaking my fist at God.  It seems as though since then, things have been coming against me right and left.  Just when I finally "let go, and let God"....things seem to start to unravel again! LOL...funny how that works.  Well, you have to laugh, right, cause if you don't laugh then you cry.

Anyways, as stated,  there have been some more changes in my life over the last few weeks.  And while I am somewhat fearful of what lies ahead, I have this strange peace that seems to be helping me to take my next breath and continue putting one foot in front of the other.

That strange peace is God and my knowing that He's got this.  As with all of my aha moments in the last many years, I know it's an aha moment from God, when I get this unwavering peace.

Let me just also say this...that even though there are some pretty uncertain crazy things right now, there are also plenty of great things happening in my life at the same time. Another reason I know it's all from God.

I met a great new friend through this women's conference...her name is Mandy, she is an awesome woman, mother, wife and friend!  She is an accomplished blogger and writer!!!  BTW, Here is Mandy's blog, http://www.deliberatewomen.org/ .  She put on her Overcomer Outreach Facebook page a great verse ..it reminded me to put my trust in God even though things seem crazy. Not to mention,  I AM sort of afraid of some of the uncertainties in my life right now.....   Psalm 56:3 "When I am afraid I will put my trust in You"......       AHA!!!!  


Happy Monday!!!

Blessings,

Marcy