I can be so strong and confident sometimes...but then there is the other side to that..where I let my insecurities win and I FAIL.
I over think and am too sensitive sometimes, and that it is the cause of a few arguments that I have had with a particular person. And when I think about why I let certain things that this person does or doesn't do affect me the way I do, I can't understand it. I guess I just expect this person to let me down. That is not fair to them, nor to myself. I am setting myself up for failure. Am I trying to sabotage something good? I really am not!
While processing this today, I guess, I have come a long way since my divorce and the emotional baggage that has been a part of my journey. But I still have a ways to go. I went for counseling when I first entered the separation/divorce process..and that gave me a lot of tools to use to over come a lot. However I still have some obstacles in my way that are keeping me from being totally healed. I need to go back to the basics. So today was an epic fail...tomorrow is a new day. AND I will keep on trying and using the tools I've been given to overcome those insecurities!!
No one ever trips over a mountain. Its the little pebbles along the way that can cause us to fall. But when you look behind you you will realize that you have crossed over a mountain. Hang in there. Every day is not the perfect days that you see in photos. Its the days in between that is life. I think u said it best- tomorrow is another day. U are far more advanced than many. U are willing to admit flaws. U try to fix them. But not all is a flaw. It merely a part of who you are. What makes you you. Sooo how are u going to be the best you???? Because right now you are pretty awesome.
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